So, we are all sinners. Let's face it. We may be in denial. We may try to tell ourselves that deep down inside, humans are basically good. Wrong! Still don't believe me? Well think back to the last "good deed" you did. Remember? For a split second (or more) you thought about how good of a person everyone would think you were because of that "good deed". I recently volunteered to help out moving freshman into the dorms at my school. How sweet... Let me tell you the things that ran across my mind more than I would like to admit. "These freshman are all going to think I am SO cool!", and "Man, the people in charge of Residential Life are going to hire me to be an RA on the spot because I am so helpful", not to mention "I am so proud of myself for taking the time out of my day to help someone else." Doesn't sound so nice anymore, does it? It sounds narcissistic and prideful. I struggle with that a lot. This blog is to help me (I know, still narcissistic) let y'all know what else I am struggling with and what God is teaching me through it all. The title of this blog comes from the song "Carry Your Love" and it just reminded me that, not only is everything NOT about me, but I am not even in charge of myself. I am merely a vessel for breaking; and praise God that vessel is in His, the Redeemers hands, because otherwise this ship would have capsized long ago. Knowing that I am not my own is a humbling and relieving thought.